free writing

One dies without even knowing why, the other is reborn on the porch of my old house, screaming and crying, he will wander and wonder later as we all do in the grey shade of the world that we are thrown in. Do not ask yourself ever why this is, reasons unknown, words left on paper, no sender, no receiver, only questions. Blue as the sky as my eyes after a night without sleeping, on the beach with his guitar playing same old beginning, let me try, I say. Red hot chilly peppers and a lot of red wine. I am getting old, tomorrow is my birthday and I feel left out from my own party, it’s windy but I like it. I feel like dancing on the floor, we are your friends, they say, scream and dance and scream again. Left, right, left, right, in the army must be tough, I am a girl, I will never know. Maybe I will join the army some day, take a gun and start shooting stars, they will fall down around me like dead birds. Black and scary.